At last...

What a wonderful world~~~
Believe or not, that was the only words that came from this silent mouth right after I have done my EIB 300 paper. Took me for awhile to feel the sheer of joy, Why? Here we go...

Papa: Zat, I have found an article about this golf college kat perth, sounds good and I hope you consider this option..

That was the ultimate green light my dad gave to me regarding education for almost years. Cut the story short, I was a bit nervous and excited when arrived at JG Resort, the place that i nurtured my golf skill for two years (well i think i did well in golf). Aid, San and Al was the person who gave the greatest view of life in J. Gloomy and terrifying at night but peaceful and exciting, J has been the place that i miss a lot although I will always regard that place as a "haunted town".

Looking back at the 2nd year in P, it was the best period of my life when this bunch of crazy freak and smart golfers always come together and doing all kind of stuff which I could say illegal but fun considering i was a pure teenager ( i am still, dont get me wrong). Giggling was part of activity where most of us for sure still remember the best moments in J. Small college like AIGM could only unite us and freedom was the key elements.

CUOT, here i come. I was happy to finally get away from J. It was weird, but when I realized that most of colleagues gone back after finish their duties, it was the right moves. Staying with OTR was nice (turned out to be a nightmare) . My aim, gather the same kind of friends that i had before. Was it too much of ask? Nope. And there was D, Ay, Ab, Stan and few others friends.

H came to my life, showing me the sweetness of life when i thought that i would not have. Then my life and my journey was balanced, and it is still. Not forgetting Ad, Ash, Adm, Did and other guys who become my focal point during my last period in P. After this years, was it worth leaving M for P? Worth every cents and seconds of my life....

10 November 8.55pm, " you may stop writing and put the question paper in the answer sheet before you leave". But hold on, I was expecting the sheer joy that I wanted. D and my other classmate looking at me with this " what was the question want us to answer with" face. Me and D always admit we want only to "pass" the unit, however the urge to have more than we aim is just in us. I assumed that was the reason the joy was dissappeared for a moment.

Then came a private call and this soft voice tone came from my HP. My mom was there to call me when I need her (hehe, i was there to call her from few reason, such a bad son). Suddenly, I was smiling to myself and finally, there was the sheer joy i want, the peaceful and happiness that I seek for almost 4 years. My H was there to call me when she is so busy preparing for her exams. I was in "cloud 9". The funny part was i took a drive alone around B, while saying "what a wonderful world" phrase for thousands of times and reward myself with a good Chicken Deluxe Meal from Macca's.

After all this years, I was praying that I could turn back the time. Ouh well, it turned out that this is a much better feeling than i expected. At last... I can look at the future more brightly and dont have to lingering myself with the past.

And A. here i come......

Dilemma...

Friendship.. something we need as we embrace it everyday..such the air we need
BUT..when things when horribly wrong..it is just an atomic dash in the head, giving to much space and attention to them is just the most regretful decision made..as the consequences,they took things for granted. Kindness do not deserve any of this stupid issues. I have to give away my ego and time for this thing, I hope they realize friendship do not work just one way, we shoould simultaneously take it and keep it.

I woke up in a dramatic fashion, as always, knowing exams is just one week away..a lot of stuff need to settle on top of that. But one word could only describe me at this moment, PROCRASTINATING!!! I felt deeply in love with FM and my eyes and my mind i devoted to this fascinating boys-addiction. BUT.. I need to get my ass off.. get my head straight..I felt i'm giving to much time to my alter-ego. FOCUS.PATIENCE.ENGAGE.

A hit from reality

Have not slept without having my computer on all the time. Tracking down the days where I was afraid of the dark and sleeping was an issue for me, and the feeling was the same as I found the "pills" for it, late night movie on my unpredictable laptop. Suddenly, hatred mountaining inside me as I recap what happen yesterday Capstone's class.

EPJ have been the pain in the A*& for the last few weeks. Extra work, extra work, extra work.."wait?there is not such thing in the unit outline" says D, my best mate for the last couple of years in CUoT. We appreciate each other as we will stand together whenever and wherever, and two years later, we are here , facing EPJ torment regularly, doing what we did best in this case, LISTEN n DO. However, when the results came in, it was dreadfull. After receiving torment , extra work and others and.. what? No. 4 in the class out 5? Stats fully proven we are in solid 3rd position, way infront of team A on 4th and poking up team C for the 2nd spot, but.. is this the system of education i paid for? I am not being exagerrating. Lucky I have Honeyand D, there are the only two person which i will turn my words into. EPJ understood our complaint, and email have been sent to whom who made the system. TEAM D deserve better than this!!

Oouhh s(*&!! ok2 heading for the books now

Happiness??

We laugh, yes we all do laugh, do you feel laughing is the essence for happiness, or is just a reason to release the burden you had in the office or in school? Think about it..

Dressing up voguely to a nightclub and jumping around and having yourself surrounded by random people in the club, could you feel the happiness in your self? Think about it...

I realized in this few weeks I feel something ismissing in my life. But hold on, i have my funny religious oriented family back in hometown, I continuously calling my love of life everyday and I have been LMAO with my mates for the last few days, should my search for happiness answered in a big scale??

Words i've depict above is just the starting of my transaction, transaction into a new life, transaction into a new committment, as happiness is what I am desperate to get, to capture it while I am taking a new step into a "flatland".